pine away and die
fever..swollen eye..
overcast sky...
Cat sitting on my lap staring at my bruised eye...
sitting in front of laptop..
waiting for some ideas to pop...
have i lost it?
the ability to write...the will to fight...
nah...i think i will turn out alright..
the clenching feeling...
the emptiness within...
why should it be...
the sky is weeping for me...
the lost little boy..in a man's body...
~aberwyn sweetsong
She
I can see her shy smile
in the smoke from my cigarette.
I can feel her heartache
in the song the band sings.
I can sense her presence
when I see her friends.
I know her heart is with me
even though she belongs to someone else.
~aberwyn sweetsong
sleep
I woke up with a start.
It doesn't seem like it will depart..
The joy of seeing that face again,
morphs into anxiety and strain.
I fear sleeping.
I dread waking.
I refuse the hint,
it was all just a wonderful dream...
~aberwyn sweetsong
I have learned
I have learned as a kid:
my words doesn't hold against an adult;
to be accepted,
I need to get good results.
I have learned as a teenager:
Their broken marriage is what I would rather do without;
and I could cheat, lie and steal,
as long as they don't find out.
I have learned as a young adult:
Love was just an illusion, nothing to shout about;
should just concentrate on getting laid
without copping out.
I have learned as a working adult:
to get a good job you need to be devious;
to climb the corporate ladder,
you must be nefarious.
I have learned as a man:
to hide my feelings from the one that I adore;
away I would creep,
when it's time to weep.
I have learned.
~aberwyn sweetsong
Charity
There were advertisements on TV,
Posters everywhere for you to see.
It was splashed over major publications
Radio DJs repeated the dissemination.
With this huge A&P budget,
They call it charity.
Boy bands appealing to their teenage fans,
Chinese opera singers imploring their aged fans.
Famous artistes performing death-defying scenes,
Despairing footages to tug your heartstings.
With this elaborated scheme,
They call it charity.
The more donations you give,
You get more chances to win gifts.
At the end of the day,
I can only pray,
The funds go to the right party.
This event they called charity.
~aberwyn sweetsong
Smile
Strained smile of disagreement
Sneering smile of contempt
Sad smile of resignation
Shy smile of embarassment
Sensual smile of seduction
Sweet smile of victory
Nothing beats an angelic smile of fondness,
coupled with a tender gaze of love...
~aberwyn sweetsong
At times like these
At times like these:
The world seems brighter,
the colours, livelier,
the politics at work, inconsequential.
The rain brings a touch of romance,
the morning sun, a new beginning,
the clouds, possibilities.
At times like these,
I do not need the whiskey glass to make the world seem better.
~aberwyn sweetsong
I want to be a Bastard
I want to be a cad,
I don't think it's that bad.
I want to be a scoundrel,
I am sick of the torture.
I want to be a creep,
the distress is affecting my sleep.
I want to be a rascal,
not a stupid martyr.
I don't want to be a gentleman,
I can't stand the torment.
I want to be a Bastard,
not just any ordinary bastard.
Capital B for BASTARD.
~aberwyn sweetsong
Missing You
My tears drop on the tombstone,
Without you, the house is no longer a home.
You were the harbour that sheltered me from turbulent waves,
now I am too fearful to leave my cave.
Your vulnerability gave me the strength to live,
as I try to give you moments of relief.
I was the scarecrow that chased your blues away,
Now there is no reason for me to stay.
The first blush of morning,
reminds me of what is lacking.
The chirps of the early sparrow,
serves to deepen my sorrow.
You are not dead,
you were torn away from me!
You are not dead,
you will always live within me...
~Aberwyn Sweetsong
Comrade-in-arms
My trusty cigarette on my right,
Parrying the enemy’s merciless drive
Resolute pint on my left,
Shielding me in this eternal strife
Steadfast companions they are
Defending me endlessly.
To betray them at this hour
Tell me,
Isn’t that treachery?
- Aberwyn Sweetsong
